Dearest God,..

January 31, 2009 Leave a comment

Thank you,
for everythin,..
all the good time in my life ..
and the bad time that makes me strong..
i know life isnt easy,..
and i know without you in my life,.
i wont be here now..
and i know,
it wasnt right if ..
i’m only thinking of you when i’m down
and feels sad,..

Thank you,
for sent me..
people who care about me alots,..
they made me smile ,
and realize how beautiful life is..
they’re remind me there always a hope somewhere,..
and if i’m hurt right now,
tomorrow, i might be feels so happy,.

Thank you,
for always remind me,..
there is a light,
at the end of adark paths..
and in every hartime i’ve got,
there always  a smile waiting for me

Thank you,
for remind me to not give up
of anything in life,..
to not runs from the truth,..
and hides anymore,..
to not hurt people who hurted me,..
forgive them with heart,.
it wasnt an easy things but
i realize thats the only way tobe happy..

Thank you,
for always near me,
even i always leave you
but you never leave me alone
you always there for me
near me,…
everytime i’m feeling down,
you always reach me
and hold me
as a place i lay my life,

Thank you,.. God..
for everything,..

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January 29, 2009 Leave a comment

most of teens knows Stephenie Meyer’s book “Twilight Saga” . But i believe not only a teen’s who read that book . btw, including me . it was so amazing to see how people respond about this book.

Twilight it self is about  young-adult vampire-romance novel written by author Stephenie Meyer. It was originally published in 2005 in hardback. It is the first book of the Twilight series, and introduces seventeen-year-old Isabella “Bella” Swan who moves from Phoenix, Arizona, to Forks, Washington, and finds her life in danger when she falls in love with a vampire, Edward Cullen. The novel is followed by New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn.

The series is told primarily from Bella’s point of view, with the epilogue of Eclipse and a portion of Breaking Dawn being told from the viewpoint of character Jacob Black. Midnight Sun, if published, will be a retelling of the first book, Twilight, from Edward Cullen’s point of view.

The Twilight series is popular among young adults, having sold over 40 million copies worldwide with translations into 37 different languages around the globe. In addition, the four Twilight books were the biggest selling novels of 2008

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A meaning of life

January 28, 2009 Leave a comment

its so blur…
and im confused,
with everything ..
i really dont know what to do,..
its getting deeper and deeper,
and i couldnt run or hides..
i tried to fixed,
but it couldnt be better…
what kinda life is this,
when everything seems not real…
i couldnt tell or share,
i just stay,
at same point,
and wondering…
when this will be end.

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November’ 23

November 23, 2008 Leave a comment

Happy Birthdayyy!!!

thats de first thing i wanna say to ya (smiling at the window)..

this should be your 38 birthday…

i have alots aThing to tells ya..

but when i sits and start to types.. my head turns blank :(..

maybe to many thing i wanna say…

and i dont know how to start..

the only things u needs to know..

even i know u already knew it..

by watching me everyday..

i bet you laughing alot  coz my sillyness

or sad see me cried..

while im thinking of you..

im sorry… its becoz..

i misss you..

so missing you…

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November 15, 2008 Leave a comment

can say, today is better than yesterday coz the books i ordered from net came this morning im so exciting.. ive been looking that books arounddddd book stores but theydidnt have it.. i was kinda worried i wont recieve it .. but i did! =)

and today,. im thinking about someone, and hope he’s alrite with things in his life over there. i admit it i missed him alot. miss talking with him but im afraid to talk.. all i do just watch his nick on my msgr.. so silly but.. all the rejecting he did on me. and all the things he did still hurts me. i am not angry or hates him but theres a part that i couldnt forget.. still captured in my mind and its hurts me..

now im scared to like someone. i dont know if i can someo people said,.. “to forget someone is try to love someone new” it was work on me but now not anymore. i dont know why..

i love my life, i anjoy it every moment every breathe that i take.. but i feel something missing and i still think about him i dont know till when.. he will always have a special place in my heart. he think of me too??………..

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July 9, 2008 Leave a comment

i found something interesting,.

some people believe, that make a wish at 11:11 pm can happen all your wishes, all your hope..

i did try when i knew about it..

and the weird is?? its really happen 🙂 some can happen a few minutes later and some will needs a time to make it come true. i foundout that life full of suprised. things that couldnt be recieved by mind are exists like ghosts and urban legend,..

its hard to believe but it happen around us.. just like make a wish at 11:11

people make wishes at 11:11 not only for the fact that its all the same numbers in a row but also because it is believed that 11:11 is the sign of the angels. Supossedly, when you see 11:11 it means you’re being watched over by your guardian angel.

Numerologists believe that events linked to the time 11:11 appear more often than chance or coincidence.This belief is related to the concept of synchronicity. Other authors believe it is an auspicious sign, and others that it signals a spirit presence.
Uri Geller has stated:
For many years the numbers 11:11 have been mysteriously appearing to people all over the world. Often appearing on digital clocks, the sightings of 11:11 tend to occur during times of heightened awareness, having a most powerful effect on the people involved.”
Although, not an originator of the concept, Uri Geller has spoken repeatedly about 11:11 and belief that it has mystical powers has also been adopted by many believers in New Age philosophies. However some skeptics say that Geller’s examples of 11:11 phenomenon in world events are examples of post-hoc reasonin and confirmation bias.

“It helps you to realize that all of earth and its creatures have spiritual energy and thought and can communicate that with us when we are in a state that opens ourselves to that energy.”

A new age of “Spiritual Uplift” has begun on our planet. There are now literally billions of Celestial beings here, all of whom have been especially trained to assist with changing the course of this planet. Many more of these delightful Spirit Guardians are now ready to assist whoever will ask for their help. As a tribute to the centuries-long tenure of the original 1,111 Celestial Helpers, they have retained the customary 11:11 prompts. We are told that well over a million folks are being given these 11:11 prompts, and a glance around the web will tell you something big is happening

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July 9, 2008 Leave a comment


Its always you i’m thinking about,

Alwayas you i wanna hold,..

Always you i need to touch..

Always the memories i cherish most,

Are those of you,..

Time goes quickly,.. by in your arms,

Only to crowl when we are apart..

Long day drag, and the fantasy i make,

rarely burn with lust and desire..

Only fueled by deprivation and distance.

The afternoon sunsine is warm on my face

But even butterflies that spreed their wings around me,..

Can not take my mind off of you.

I remember our inside jokes, and our long convo..

I can feel how close we are,..

Night fall upon the world,

And my heart breaks ever more..

Memories floo over me as moon rise overhead,

Thinking of what sky you may be seeing.

I lay alone on my warm bed,

Talks from the past echoing through my mind,..

I smile and close my eyes, you sweet smiles calming me..

Missing you is hurt as i lay in the nights darkness..

Memories of you still linger about in my sleep mind..

I wish on every star each night,..

that you will missing me too…


to someone,.. who filled my life with smiles n kindness.

you wil always live inside my heart..

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